Pleasure To Be Around

Driving is an art, especially when you are driving in a busy road. And the road must be the place where you have never been. Yah, here we have GPS, so its easy because it takes to the people wherever they give the address. It had happened same to me today. It was not the first time I was driving to the downtown first time, but today it was different. It was different because I was going for my future. First time, I felt, I have my future there. So, did everything late (its my habit), so that my uncle will ask me to take the car, rather than the train. So, i was happy, then went through the roads driving through the highway, sometimes at 75, or sometimes even 25. The highway was busy, as it was mere the regular rush hour, and the manner I parked. Every parking lot was full and I was going to be late. So, I just went into a place, did not cared about the rate, as I knew I would be paying with my credit card :D . Was in the full mood to talk with the person, to let him know what was my pl...

Came up with these three unique words Asha, Parikalpana and another one being Biswas. In our culture, we tend to have feeling that if thought of a way, these three words counter same meaning. But in my view point, in each and every point of life, these three words have different meanings as well as feelings.

I dont know, what came into my mind in the early morning, I was just out searching a leaf. I just remembered that when I was in my +2, I used to collect different leaves and put it in the books. After a while (around a month) it used to be so soft that, you would love it. So, that thing came into my mind, so I was out in early in the morning to search some leaves. But my utmost luck, I could not find a single leaf in the surrounding. I thought, I will get it from somewhere else, so was in college. I tried to search a leaf, here also I could not find a single. Imagine, not able to find a single leaf. Then I tried to see the greenary area, i wasnot able to see it. See the picture (may be I will upload it late), this is the condition of the place where I am leaving. Everywhere you see is the brown colored branches with no leaves on it. So frustrating for me, not to find a leaf also :(

With the Christmas around the corner, and the fall temperatures beginning rapidly, the greenery around the street is being replaced by the artificial lights which are looking more beautiful in the night rather than the day. In the day, you can only feel the yellow leaves in the shade of the tree with tree being like wearing clothes in the birthday suit. The brown trees with just branches remaining and the cold chill wind blowing through the ear makes the day really good. Some of the friends already starting to yell the first flurried in their town really mystifies me, whether they had or not. May be they must have. I dont know what the first flurries means for me, as it would be my first time, but I am really enjoying the weather now. Driving in the night with the windows open (of course the heater is on in the car) is really getting me good with the natural temperature around my surroundings. While doing these activities, it makes me really feel that it should have 25 hrs in a day, so...

I came to read you, and was not dared to write a comment of the blog you said. May be that you have written to empty your mind or its just the public view, I thought you are more confused with yourself about yourself. I am not stopping to talk with you, but, want to make the talk special by talking once or twice a week. Its not good to talk with all those nuisance words again and again with no result being the output. Its good, if we can talk with thinking about the result which we desire to have after the talk. Mainly its the opinion and it values most, when we talk. If we cannot get the call of opinion as correct, then its not good to talk and start the mesmerizing topic to being confused with each other. You are creating the confusion in yourself about thinking your future, still you ask me why should I think about future. Better think about the future, but don't make it feel that same future is creating the burden for your present. You are so intelligent to think about yoursel...

Pressure is to be begin I am feeling it, With being upset from you I am not able to transfer me With the pace I had to No one listened to me at the time same is being now with the approach from heart to you I was in lost completely in you Thought of some good thing that made me move my hand but the brain did not function so all try went in vain still was expecting the same answer which you have given to me now had hope of positive very little but all hope too gone mad now I am free so you are with promises to be made never to meet apart but wish to see you again in my soul and heart I know you are upset but I never told you lie may be the time was enemy when I told you the thing but the conditions were similar when it happened and now still now there is no reflection between you and me the phase of our life was a refraction which came and we were near and now the distance being the same Still I want to cherish those momemts but with the cherish the pain will be there and its hard to fo...

With the being of all cast level in the same field, its not uncommon to be or being loved by other people of different cast. If the age was of teen, then we can say that, this type of love might be immature. But what we will say, if it is a mature love, when we fall at the age of around 25? Should we only date and share the experiences and then leave the relation citing that its the intercaste one?? Or shall we take it as responsibility to think that we need to unite for good goal of the future. It is biologically proved that the younger generation born from the intercaste family are more healthier and more intelligent than the ones who are born from same-caste family. But that does not only prove that we must go always the intercaste. We have to see our family, our neighbor and other people around us before we have to take this decision. With the examples seen in our society, here are the disadvantages for the intercaste marriage: 1. Problem with the culture for both ones. For ex, New...

"Dashain aayo, Khaula Piula, Kaha jaula, chori lyaula, dhatta papi, ma ta chuttai basula" Those were the words we used to speak when we were young. Its like asking parents that the dashain has begun. Whenever dashain used to come, the good thing was, we were happy that we are getting the new clothes every year. And also going for the shopping, thinking that mum will have the icecream while in the shopping or some lunch in pawan used to always run in my mind when I was younger. I am not saying now I am old, but the situation has changed now. Its the first time in my education life that I am going to school to take class in Ghatasthapana. I am really missing everybody there. Wish that I was in ktm, then I could have drove to bhw in this situation. But now its really very much impossible to come there to have the shopping or hope to get lunch in pawan misthan bhandar. What I can get is the MacDonald burger, or subway ham. Hyaaa, I dont want this thing, I want sel, puri, but all ...

Yellow Tree, Sept 22nd, and the chilly wind blowing outside. What does it mean? May be the fall has started again. The weather outside is so pleasant out here, that you will forget everything running in your mind. (That what happened to me, except concentrating on my exam papers, I was concentrating on all over my goals what to do next in the last summer day). Its such wonderful things to watch, the greenery around me is slowly day by day turning in yellow. The leaves are falling around, the wind is so gentle and cool that, you don't want yourself be inside the house. I was near the Chicago river last night at probably 1 AM. The wind was so cool and the air was so nice, that I wished I would be in that position for my whole life.

I can in the job and thought how can we compare the software and the galfreind. Lets see my comparison 1. Both are hard to make at first. (I don't believe in first sight love). 2. Both take tremendous time to be made mine at the start. 3. Both should be documented properly for the future reference. (Galfreinds should be documented in the diary). 4. The more you try to make it own for both of them, they try to run away at first. 5. After start, both start the demand. Software ask for more research and more good interface, while Girlfriend ask for more dating and more time. 6. Both tends to be tedious while you continue in the same fashion. You feel uncomfortable with both, when you give more time to both. 7.Both ask for use as the mind freshener, but but are the ............. 8. The more you change them (or change themselves), the more you feel they are yours. 9. With the continue of both being same type and same thing, then both tends to be outsourced. 10. The more you use them, th...

It seems like, many people are annoyed or amused with my Name in this blog. The Name "Black Board" has different meanings than what it means in real life. Actually, this is the part of my name. If my friends have chatted with me in MSN, then they can find the other part of the Black Board in my Nick there. Actually its "Blackboard: Learning System". What does it means, you can easily find if you Google it. The Correct thing is its a learning system, actually a CMS which is used according the user specific type and privilege. If I am student, then I am not able to edit the contents of this thing, and only I can view those thing, which are made available to me. If I am a lab adviser, then also, I can only see what others have made me enrolled into. But If I am a Teaching Assistant, then the professor with whom I am working, I can have the complete editing facility to the subject of the professor. If I am Professor, then I can edit, remove the contents from my page. Al...

Wont you all be happy, when you find that I have been there to receive you at the international airport and take to your destination in my brand new car (just new for me, even if I buy Used ones)? Its like making me really feel good, when I think that I am going to buy a car. Really I do research in these car things whole week and read all the newspaper related to car thing. I am always messed up when I think, which model to buy, which color and everything else. Also I consider is should I buy a cheap new car, or go for some dashing used ones. Yah it depends upon the budget how much I can spend. But, there is always credit card for you when you are in US. And with the good job back in my mind, I think its worth to buy a car in credit rather than paying whole amount in a bunch. But after that I have to think about my other expenses too. Its pretty hard when you think of other expenses in your life. The main thing to consider while buying a car is, do I need a car now or not. Probably no...

I know its like a mess, but these are the things that are making crowdy in my life. When I see my table, I feel, I wont go in that table to read. When I go into the computer table, I feel, I am rather good enough to use laptop on my palm rather than in the desktop board. When I move into the book rack, I find out the much more things other than the reading materials in the rack. When I move to the wall closet, I find much more things other than clothes in the closet. Even I feel alone, these things are making my life crowdy and messy. I try to clean these things everyday (hope so, if not every day, once in a week is sure :D ) but cannot get idea where to put all these materials. I cannot remove the cables from my table as I need them for recharging the camera or recharging my laptop. I cannot remove the papers in the desktop table as they are precious as well as confidential. I have no other place to keep these papers other than the desktop table. So, I feel its better to use the lapto...

Its really insane, when you feel that you want to enjoy everything ahead of you, but you wont have the partner to share with you. I tried to share, either through mail or email, but seems, now everyone is bit busy. I am in stress with all those works, assignments and traveling. Want some time to be with friends, to laugh with the people around me. But seems, those days are past for me. I am just in one way of life now. Neither I have good friend with whom I can put my head in his/her lap to talk, nor the environment where I can manage such time. Its such disgusting when you are being busy like this and cant get time for yourself. Probably email is good friend for me. But when I tend to mail, no one gets me reply. When I talk with friends, it seems like those past days were very much important for me. Bitting B**** while we were walking from the school. Making him cry when I was in home by beating him, and again the next day starting the good relationship. It was also at that time, whe...

Never had such dream that, While in a class, I will be looking outside only whole of the class. Today there was the first class, and I did same. The outside view was such wonderful one that I could not resist in looking outside view rather than at the white board and the professor. Actually I was at the 14th Floor of my College building in the Downtown, and since I was that high, I could see whole downtown of Chicago from here. I wish I had my camera today. But surely I will grab the pics on any other day as soon as I have the camera. Also when I was working near the Lake-shore yesterday, I could see whole Michigan lake from the lab where I was working. My first reaction was after seeing the view, OOH MY GOD, Wished the class to be here. But anyway it was ok, as it was my job and you can move around your eyes in the job here. Surely, I am bringing my camera next time when my class and job are at their respective places and will take the pictures of it to publish in the blog. But this t...

Doesnot it look good?? My legs with full of .......... John Hancock tower near to Water Tower Chicago Buildings with my camera EasyShare Z712 IS Chicago Buildings A big Digital Frame in the millenium Park Chicago, Worth to watch and get wet

It only seems yesterday when I was first get wet with the friends while walking down from minbhawan to Hadigaun in the year 1999. Seems it was only a bet then at the morning, without knowing what would be the weather in the evening, we had to get wet in the rain. It just makes me remind of those cracked minds and " pehla nasa, pehala kumar, naya pyar hein naya intazar" type of feelings. May be that would be another type of story with being attracted to opposite number in the mid and late teens. Its not only that I like to be with the girls to get wet. I have been many time gone to the rain to get wet, to splash my face with the striking power of the rain and sometimes hail too. It was a dream come true for me, when I was left alone to be left for drenched in the outside rain. Not only in my late teens, I always had some company with the gals walking in the rain either it would be with umbrella or sharing shame raincoats in a bike or without any external things to avoid the ra...

It is ones responsibility to make the time managed in his/her day. With the fixed schedule for me in this fall, I am trying to manage the time schedule for myself. But since being always late in my career, I don't know how do will I manage the time for myself. And also I have to manage the time schedule for three different shifts each day. Its very hard for me to manage such schedules, but what to do, I have to. Time schedules starts from the Alarm in the morning to fresh up in the bathroom to catching train in late night. Each day of the week, same process, just some shift will be changed otherwise, same schedule. While reading accounts in my high school, I used to feel, why time management is so important, as we can complete the work as soon as we get it. But here, we cannot do our work after the given time frame or before the time frame. And its very hard to have manage such schedule for a whole week. But I have to continue for such schedule, either it would be of sleeping in be...

What does a deferred means. I searched the google and found out the following meaning 1. Postponed, put off to later नेपालीमा भनाई छ "ज गर्नु आज गर्नु, भोलि को लागी ना राखनु " But I am always prepared to defer my things without following the quotation. Now my luck too has deferred for the future. I was planning everything for the future without thinking of the present. Now, the word deferred has postponed my work from future to present. I don't have that much time that I can use all the future plans now. I don't know how can I cope with all this plans which I have to complete in present. May be I am deferring my all the decisions for the present to the future, but surely it will be very much sophisticated for me. I am not all that type of persons who have all the minds for all the things. With all the work postponed from future to present, I am not able to cope with the pressure. Had been all things known before, I could manage. But in this last hour, the news is not ...

It was a better day for me here. It was a day off for chicago for me. Its very much better to go around with freinds and talk as well as shout as you like. You dont have to be formal while talking with freinds. Thanks to my uncle for making the day as perfect as it should be. Also thanks my aunt for making such wonderful dish during the short period of time. May be the other guys who were in my home that day (29th July 2007) would thank both of them. I dont know how would they say thanks, but...i know they will. I am sure, chicago cannot be runned in a day. It has a vast attraction than what we have previously thought. May be, the guys from Nebraska wouldnot be able to explain it in a day without our help. They came to know many things about chicago in a Day. The day started from Tower Road Beach to Linden to McCormick Blvd to Devon Ave. Devon Ave is one of the ugliest place in chicago, but I insist them to start the tour from that part of chicago, such that they wont feel that they ar...

I am sorry, but I missed my ring yesterday. I dont know where it is lost. I am so sad when I found that the ring in my index finger was missing in the morning. I didnot know what to do. Yesterday I was too tired and since my laptop too was not in order to be used, I just watched TV around 11 pm after my work. Also, there was some thing to drink on my side which would make me drunk after some time. I dont know till that time I had ring on my finger or not. But surely I made a mess of me. I was worried for it, as because it was a precious gift from my parents for my better future. I dont know where I lost. Hope that I will find it in the future.

Missing Happiness I used to hate when I was in tears. I always hide myself when I used to be in tears. Now, I am happy that my tears are all back with me. Its coming out everyday making me remind who I am and where I am from. Time has always told me to hold out the tears and pour it whenever you are alone. Thats what I am doing here. Seems everyone knows how happy I am, but no one knows the internal feelings I am going through. Does this feelings tells me that I am missing someone. Of course not. I am not so free to miss anyone now. Time is trigerring me to be bold and self confident man. Yah I am jealous with other people's development. Some one says this thing other says this thing. I am really into this kind of feeling. But on myself, I am nothing. I am not able to cope with the time I am passing on. Missing Time Frame Technology is getting far ahead than me. I am not able to cope with the time and pressure, the technology has given to me. If somebody ask me what is your best si...

With the news from kantipur online, I came to know that Nepalese not only create strikes in Nepal, but also in Foreign countries. see the online version of the news on link below enews link I was really thinking why did mysansar.com has no posting on this news. May be, the mysansar.com author is busy with bhatta tatta saptaha. :D With the above news, I really feel sorry for those people who got deport from the country. But, they must have feel that, every government is not like the Nepalese Government where everything is mattered from the strikes and the bandhs. Even I am here in US, I feel very sorry to those people who are in Nepal and feel pressurized due to the bandh and strikes. I used to come to think, why people create bandhs and strikes, even though they know that, this only effects the local community not to those people who are moving in the secured vehicles. Imagine people walking from Jorpati to Kalanki, Bhaktapur to Baneshwor. This is too much for the local community. Also...

Someone must be wondering why I am writing so much of failure items in my blog. But, its life dude, failure tends to be remembered each now and then, but when you success, you don't tend to remember always. Now today in the morning after I get from the bed, I came to know that I was failure again, in terms of my life. I know we have to think about the success from these failures, but..when you are deeply hurt in these types of failures, you cannot be always gained knowledge in these type of failures. I don't know, how to get rid of these things in the situation I am now, but I have to. May be blog is my friend in my loneliness, but sure, I am alone from now. Bye bye to you, who made me lonely again.

Failure is the pillar of success, but I don't know, when there is success for me to drive a vehicle alone. I have given my driving test two times and still, I am not able to get the car license on my own. I don't know what fault they see in my driving. Some one says, this, some one says that, I am not able to cope with this change. Today I am going to give a try again for the third time. Hope that I can be success this time. PRAY FOR ME MY DEAR FRIENDS :D AT LAST I GOT IT. NOW I CAN DRIVE ANYWHERE IN ILLINOIS. PERHAPS, MAY BE I DO NEED NOW A CAR :D

With my experiences in past, I always used to think that with the elapse of the time, I will be always ok. But the pressure mounted on my head is increasing day by day as the summer begins. I wish I could do much better than what I am doing now. But, with no communication skills developed inside me till now, I am becoming a dull day by day. Time is itself killing me, and I am doing nothing good to myself. I do have to take my decision as soon as possible, but dont know why, I am not willing to take the decision. Really, I am missing some of the people who always backed me up. In the summer, I am feeling completely alone. May be I am not taking the classes, so I am alone, or whenever I call someone, no one picks the phone. May be this two reasons are the to make you all alone.. ...................................................................... Some one had earlier said me, Time waits for no-one. I think its true. But, now I am feeling that time is stopped for me. Nothing to do, no w...

Last thursday (26th April 2007), it made me realize how much valuable a min can be. On each occasion I was late by one or two minutes, and if I had queued up all the time, then it wont be more than 20 mins, but the output of the time lost was more than one hour. 1.12 pm : went to QUINCY station to take train, even I didnot know which train to take, I knew the station where I had to go will be dropped by the train coming through this station. I was asking a person there, which train to take, and the answer was PINK, which I see standing outside. Then when I rush to there, the sound came " DOORS CLOSING" and then train started moving. I was a min late there. I saw the time table there, and tried to figure out, at which time next train comes. It was after 6 minutes. I lost SIX minutes there, but not only six minutes, the train was late and took 9 minutes to come there. I waited the train and took the train. It was 1.22 then. I had to catch 1.35 metra and hoping that, this train ...

HOPE AHEAD Elusive time, As the water Meandering down, The serpentine stream, In its unchecked velocity and pace, Along with the perpetual monotonous tone of time, Along with the cadence of Tick, tick... tick; Contrary to the pace of time, Predicaments and scenario, Mayhems and massacres Of insane humane being Are ever changeable and susceptible, Blended and branded with Woeful and gala moments, Yet, keeping A straw of hope ahead. A poem by Kalash Shrestha for me on April 2nd, 2003. At that time I think that I hadnot understood what he had written in this poem, but I had saved this poem in my mail. But Now I am getting what he wants to say. Thanks kalash.

TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO READ MY BLOG, I WANT TO SAY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2064.

I do not know how it feels to be presenting in the class in abroad. But surely I am ready for it. Discussion have been done and I am building my confidence in myself so that I can have a good one. There are many people to help me out. Since it is a group presentation, I do have my partner to present too. I don't know, how it will feel in the middle, but now I am feeling much more relax and easy. Actually I was furious with my partner as she didnot had her own slides. So, I prepared for her and told her to have the presentation on that, today. Since we have nothing to have the presentation as this type of presentation is done in cycle 1 and cycle 2 is basically nothing new. Hope that I will deliver a good speech in the class.

Subject: Letter to ex-girlfreind Dear XYZ, Thanks for being my love for half years, when you receive this letter I believe you might have selected a new boy friend and started enjoying your dating. Every lovers needs to struggle a bit to get a boy friend or girl friend. XYZ … In order to recover your missing, I got another girl from next city & as you know this is my nth love, from all my past experiences I have learned a lot. When the love blossoms everyone starts writing love letters, you know very well… I have written many love letter to you , and writing a love letter in poetic way is not so easy nowadays XYZ , and it's a time consuming work, In order to avoid all this I need all my lover letters back so that I can put corrector and send to my new girl friend , please send it back to me , I don't have poetic references or any photocopy of these letters. Another thing XYZ, I have given you one cute photo of mine , can you send it to me please , you know better that this...

With the transmission power of each hour weather through internet, I was aware of the weather today. Even though, I did not take my umbrella with me because I want to taste the rain here in US. I was in Devon roaming Indian market here in Chicago, the rain started falling. I wanted to get wet, even though the weather was so chilly. I loved to be wet. So I walked here and there in rain. It reminded of my past days of getting wet in rain in Kathmandu and Dhulikhel. I did love this weather. Other people were trying to get the shade to get rid of the rain, I was walking in this rain. The one thing I was missing here was only my partner to walk with me in the rain, otherwise I was finding heaven in that rain. I had jacket, so I was not wet from upper level, but from bottom, I was completely drenched and soaked in cool water. The rain was as cool as ice, but I loved it. The rain dripping in my hair to my face was awesome. I love that moment. But, my badluck, the rain didnot last long. Only i...

At last I am able to see some nepali and hear nepali language from person from my country here in chicago. Apart from my parents here, I was not able to meet any Nepali here. At last there was a party organised by a nepali family where I went with my uncle there. Talked with them for my view there in Chicago. It was nice feeling seeing those Nepalis in the country. Had a nice poker session with them. I didnot play, but watched them play. Its like three patti in Nepal. Bit a bit standard game than those Three-patti. Hadsome kauda session too...cried saying marra...chaowka...chakka...tiya.. but didnot know how they won. I was bg in collecting dollars at first, but all went in vain when I lost all the money in last three rounds. Had a nice night drive with mama of around 1 hr. So it was a fasinating day for me...and a memorable one

Web 2.0 sites are all the rage and if you’re lucky enough to be bought out by Google or Yahoo there are millions of dollars to be made, but how do you fake it as a Web 2.0 site? Well, all Web 2.0 sites have one thing in common … they look the part. Just like surfers have their baggy jumpers and skateboarders have their Vans trainers, Web 2.0 sites need to have a silly name and trendy logo if they’ve got a hope of becoming the next site to get bought out by Google. Here’s an 11 step guide to creating the perfect Web 2.0 image. Come up with a silly name .. then take some of the vowels out. I’m hoping to “flip” (sell) my company to Google, so what about “Flipr”? Realize the name’s already been taken as a .com .. so add another word to the website address Damn .. www.flipr.com’s already gone! How about www.meetflipr.com? Choose some bright colours How about green? Nobody uses green. Yeah .. I think I’ll go for green and blue. Think of a cute mascot Hmmm .. I don’t want some...

At last i had the orientation. Now I knew how to change the status of my US residency. At last now I am knowing all the rules. I want to apply for the assistantship. Lets see, what I can get. Good Luck for me.

I had my first class in 16th jan 2007 here in Loyola University. Dean had called me at 12 noon, and I went there at around 12.30 due to misjudgement of time in traveling. Dean was nice and cool and showed me all the thing related to do in my whole semester. In one hour time I had my small orientation by dean covered. then I had 5 hrs to cover for my first class. I didnot knew what to do. So i went on to bursar office to pay my bill, then made my Id. then I went to CTA and made my U-Pass for free travel in Chicago Buses and Trains. during this process, it cost just around 1 hr for me. Still I had 4 hrs to spent, I didnot know what I have to do. Then I thought on some idea and make the utilisation of the U-pass. So get up in the train and went to another station using freee pass. Traveled to howard and came back. Also It cost me just over 2 hrs, and I had still 2 hrs left. Then I search for Mcdonald and went there to have sandwich, 2 for $3 ;) and then to book store. I dont know how to p...

ahhhhh.......at last i m in US. The traveling was not that nice nor that boring one. I was in full of excitement in the early morning in the morning, and all the excitement was gone when I was in the airport in the afternoon. I always used to be in hurry at the lost hour and so was I in this period of time. So, I was late at airport. I had to be in airport at around 1 pm and I was there at about 1.45 pm. I also get scolded for not having my passport in right place from my dad, but it was all phase of excitement. As soon as I went to airport, I placed in luggage in line and was looking in other direction other than my parents. I was not able to look into the eyes of my parents especially my mom's as my eyes were full of tears. If I have looked at her eyes, surely my tears would have fallen out. I just wanted to get inside the airport to rub the tears from my eyes. As soon as I went inside, I placed my bag in the security box and then took the hankerchief and rubbed my eyes and tea...