Pleasure To Be Around

A message, might be private, but hands off to her, who remembered so small things till now. I think I have forgot till now all the things, except kalopul kalopul samma ek barsa hideko ani mufali khako sachikai samjhera ani message lekhna baseko... tara ke lekhne ... samaya kati bitisakyo tyai pani asti bharkhar jastai lagcha....palai palo garera bus bhada tireko. ani ek din euta conductor le timro 100 rs liyera bhageko ani arko bus chadera paisa firta leko... hai??? maile sabai samjheko chhu. ani achel ma Kavre gairakna parchha, hamro project area nai ho. tyaha KU jane bato dekhepachi chahi sadhai hami KU fate ma gayeko samjhinchu tyo din pani timle nai 17 rs bhada milako thiyo.... ani, aru ke chha ta USA ko khabar?? mero ta zindagi yestai ho kaam gardai chhu, kaile kata kaile kata travel garnu parcha. ani, banda hadtal bata wakka, khub exercise hunchha kaile kahi ta... ek choti rikshaw chadera banda ma farkindai thiye, jhandai madhesi forum ko manche le rikshaw jalaidiyeko, negotiate ...

Had a day, being a student I had to act like a professor. My professor wanted me to sit in a exam as being an Invigilator. I dont know, and even I didnot had idea what to do, I said an affirmative answer to him. Now today, on April 21st 2008, I had to teach students, and then take exams for them. Woow, I was really feeling like I am grown up now. Since this was the first interaction with the students, I knew no one. I might have checked their copies and given them the grade, but I knew no one. So, went in the class, and tried to figure out the students. I could see many of the familiar faces. Woow, that was cool. The students were those with whom I either had already taken the classes with or I am being taking class in this semester. So, it was kind of friendly environment in the class. Also, the coolest thing was, i had nothing to do there while taking exam. i just had to give them the questions and write this blog, as the exam was open book, open chat as well as open Computer. So, n...

With my promise, I am still saving for my birthday present to donate something to the mentally discharged children of Nepal. Till now I have saved (121*2=$242) for them. The site for this children is here . Planning to give them the money through my friend when it gets $500. But now i dont have patience to make these money $500. To make my money $500, I still have to wait more 4 months. Actually I am saving this money by reducing the coffee that I drink outside. So, I am saving $2 per day for them. So till now, I have saved some money which I can donate to them. Thanks for such wonderful oportunities.

Nagios VS OpenNMS Nagios VS use of SNMP But the main obstacle for me is JAVA OOP and SNMP JAVA Nagios is hunting me back, and probably I will hunt it down rather than it hunts me off. WAT ABT JAVA?????????????? Java is taking my sleep, my rest. six weeks and I am all done..hope so

If a good secured site can have such failure, how can we, a simple people wont have failure. FAILURE IS THE PILLAR OF SUCCESS.

And with the state of things, even the dead would soon start to feel the effects of this turmoil the valley resident’s are reeling under as the crematory in Pashupati Nath Temple is running out of enough woods to burn dead bodies as the timber corporation which supplies it with wood has not been getting its regular supply due to disruption in vehicular movement in the Terai region. (Source : http://www.nepalnews.com/archive/2008/others/feature/feb/news_feature03.php)

In my definition, Lonely means 1. Giving Birthday present to yourself, even though there are lot of friends around you. 2. Giving Gift, a valentine Gift, to yourself, even though it is of opposite sex. But I had both for me and my partner, I don't know where my partner resides. 3. When you are looking at sky and trying to hold a hand, but only you can find your hand, not others. 4. Sharing the treasures with yourself, and your special brain disorder functions to yourself. 5. When you fix a destination thinking of someone will meet you up there, but when you reach at the destination, you don't even find the shadow of any people.(May be that time can be night :P ) 6. When everyone talks about the pleasure being in group, and you find no one except this tech gadgets. Then you are lonely

Can you feel the situation, I am facing now?? Tue Jan 29 7am - 27 F 9am - 32 F 12 pm - 39 F 3Pm - 43 F 6 PM - 27 F 9PM - 18 F Wed Jan 30th 12 am - 10F 6 am - -2 F 9 am - 2 F Currently 10:54 am - 2F How to live in this place where there is so much fluctuation of temperature in 24 hr period. I was lucky to experienced these sudden fall in 24hrs, in one of the place there was sudden fall of 30 degree in just 3 hrs. imagine the situation, there was sunshine on 12PM and suddenly there was snow fall in 3PM. God bless those

It was time to put you on my face, use you to wake up from the dream. Without you it seems like theres no morning. After I Wake up, without seeing you, I cannot do any work. But, what the hell is, I missed you in the morning. Didn't realized you were missing from my bed, but with each of the whisper running around, I was sure, you had run away from me. Tried to fetch you, your sister was seen thoroughly from my window, but you were not in me. Tried to ask someone in my home, where are you lost, but all in vain as no one knew where you are. Tried to make the communication with you, tried to feel you from my lips, but already you were gone. I was used to for getting you lost, back in my country, but here the sudden decision from you to go was unbearable for me. And there was no note or other thing which I could have said that you will be returning. I knew you had to return and you will return, but did not had any idea when you were going to. To meet you, I had asked so many people, b...

aah...the new year is here again. We are so lucky to get celebrate minimum of 2 new years in a single year. Thats quite rare but we are very much familiarize with these type of situation. So this was the new year 2008, which I had to celebrate as I am in this kind of society now. About the last day and the first day of previous year and the new year respectively, I planned a lot of things. And really thought of the day being the greatest one after being here in this lonely world. Had a friend with whom I was planning and also he had called another friend, so it was three of us for the party. On the Eve day, it was just the family gathering, and in the night time for some fireworks. Really it was fun, snow falling from sky and the light been bloomed up with sound and light. I was late, but that was all due to the traffic, as it was very much congested in the area. After the eve, new year was there. New year in the snow sound really astonishing, but had to leave from there as it was grow...

I still remember the day when I was leaving the country. I met you, with bitter taste being is this the last time I am meeting you. I am not sure, these thoughts from me will be true or false, but i tried my best not to make these thoughts true. Thought of you as the good friend, and still I think, but the pleasure what I used to get when I talk with you, is not the same now. May be i had not trusted the friendship given from you, thats why I am not getting good friends like you here in this unknown world. This world in my 1 year point of view is selfish, and blamable. But this is my world and even though this world is being like selfish, I have tried myself not to be changed from the external surrounding. Imagine, a year has passed, and I don't have friends to talk some of the feelings I want to share. Wanted to talk with you for this, but I know this dam world is very busy and i don't want to make yourself be with a headache with my problem. May be when I talk with you, I onl...

Driving is an art, especially when you are driving in a busy road. And the road must be the place where you have never been. Yah, here we have GPS, so its easy because it takes to the people wherever they give the address. It had happened same to me today. It was not the first time I was driving to the downtown first time, but today it was different. It was different because I was going for my future. First time, I felt, I have my future there. So, did everything late (its my habit), so that my uncle will ask me to take the car, rather than the train. So, i was happy, then went through the roads driving through the highway, sometimes at 75, or sometimes even 25. The highway was busy, as it was mere the regular rush hour, and the manner I parked. Every parking lot was full and I was going to be late. So, I just went into a place, did not cared about the rate, as I knew I would be paying with my credit card :D . Was in the full mood to talk with the person, to let him know what was my pl...

Came up with these three unique words Asha, Parikalpana and another one being Biswas. In our culture, we tend to have feeling that if thought of a way, these three words counter same meaning. But in my view point, in each and every point of life, these three words have different meanings as well as feelings.

I dont know, what came into my mind in the early morning, I was just out searching a leaf. I just remembered that when I was in my +2, I used to collect different leaves and put it in the books. After a while (around a month) it used to be so soft that, you would love it. So, that thing came into my mind, so I was out in early in the morning to search some leaves. But my utmost luck, I could not find a single leaf in the surrounding. I thought, I will get it from somewhere else, so was in college. I tried to search a leaf, here also I could not find a single. Imagine, not able to find a single leaf. Then I tried to see the greenary area, i wasnot able to see it. See the picture (may be I will upload it late), this is the condition of the place where I am leaving. Everywhere you see is the brown colored branches with no leaves on it. So frustrating for me, not to find a leaf also :(

With the Christmas around the corner, and the fall temperatures beginning rapidly, the greenery around the street is being replaced by the artificial lights which are looking more beautiful in the night rather than the day. In the day, you can only feel the yellow leaves in the shade of the tree with tree being like wearing clothes in the birthday suit. The brown trees with just branches remaining and the cold chill wind blowing through the ear makes the day really good. Some of the friends already starting to yell the first flurried in their town really mystifies me, whether they had or not. May be they must have. I dont know what the first flurries means for me, as it would be my first time, but I am really enjoying the weather now. Driving in the night with the windows open (of course the heater is on in the car) is really getting me good with the natural temperature around my surroundings. While doing these activities, it makes me really feel that it should have 25 hrs in a day, so...

I came to read you, and was not dared to write a comment of the blog you said. May be that you have written to empty your mind or its just the public view, I thought you are more confused with yourself about yourself. I am not stopping to talk with you, but, want to make the talk special by talking once or twice a week. Its not good to talk with all those nuisance words again and again with no result being the output. Its good, if we can talk with thinking about the result which we desire to have after the talk. Mainly its the opinion and it values most, when we talk. If we cannot get the call of opinion as correct, then its not good to talk and start the mesmerizing topic to being confused with each other. You are creating the confusion in yourself about thinking your future, still you ask me why should I think about future. Better think about the future, but don't make it feel that same future is creating the burden for your present. You are so intelligent to think about yoursel...

Pressure is to be begin I am feeling it, With being upset from you I am not able to transfer me With the pace I had to No one listened to me at the time same is being now with the approach from heart to you I was in lost completely in you Thought of some good thing that made me move my hand but the brain did not function so all try went in vain still was expecting the same answer which you have given to me now had hope of positive very little but all hope too gone mad now I am free so you are with promises to be made never to meet apart but wish to see you again in my soul and heart I know you are upset but I never told you lie may be the time was enemy when I told you the thing but the conditions were similar when it happened and now still now there is no reflection between you and me the phase of our life was a refraction which came and we were near and now the distance being the same Still I want to cherish those momemts but with the cherish the pain will be there and its hard to fo...

With the being of all cast level in the same field, its not uncommon to be or being loved by other people of different cast. If the age was of teen, then we can say that, this type of love might be immature. But what we will say, if it is a mature love, when we fall at the age of around 25? Should we only date and share the experiences and then leave the relation citing that its the intercaste one?? Or shall we take it as responsibility to think that we need to unite for good goal of the future. It is biologically proved that the younger generation born from the intercaste family are more healthier and more intelligent than the ones who are born from same-caste family. But that does not only prove that we must go always the intercaste. We have to see our family, our neighbor and other people around us before we have to take this decision. With the examples seen in our society, here are the disadvantages for the intercaste marriage: 1. Problem with the culture for both ones. For ex, New...

"Dashain aayo, Khaula Piula, Kaha jaula, chori lyaula, dhatta papi, ma ta chuttai basula" Those were the words we used to speak when we were young. Its like asking parents that the dashain has begun. Whenever dashain used to come, the good thing was, we were happy that we are getting the new clothes every year. And also going for the shopping, thinking that mum will have the icecream while in the shopping or some lunch in pawan used to always run in my mind when I was younger. I am not saying now I am old, but the situation has changed now. Its the first time in my education life that I am going to school to take class in Ghatasthapana. I am really missing everybody there. Wish that I was in ktm, then I could have drove to bhw in this situation. But now its really very much impossible to come there to have the shopping or hope to get lunch in pawan misthan bhandar. What I can get is the MacDonald burger, or subway ham. Hyaaa, I dont want this thing, I want sel, puri, but all ...

Yellow Tree, Sept 22nd, and the chilly wind blowing outside. What does it mean? May be the fall has started again. The weather outside is so pleasant out here, that you will forget everything running in your mind. (That what happened to me, except concentrating on my exam papers, I was concentrating on all over my goals what to do next in the last summer day). Its such wonderful things to watch, the greenery around me is slowly day by day turning in yellow. The leaves are falling around, the wind is so gentle and cool that, you don't want yourself be inside the house. I was near the Chicago river last night at probably 1 AM. The wind was so cool and the air was so nice, that I wished I would be in that position for my whole life.