A message, might be private, but hands off to her, who remembered so small things till now. I think I have forgot till now all the things, except kalopul kalopul samma ek barsa hideko ani mufali khako sachikai samjhera ani message lekhna baseko... tara ke lekhne ... samaya kati bitisakyo tyai pani asti bharkhar jastai lagcha....palai palo garera bus bhada tireko. ani ek din euta conductor le timro 100 rs liyera bhageko ani arko bus chadera paisa firta leko... hai??? maile sabai samjheko chhu. ani achel ma Kavre gairakna parchha, hamro project area nai ho. tyaha KU jane bato dekhepachi chahi sadhai hami KU fate ma gayeko samjhinchu tyo din pani timle nai 17 rs bhada milako thiyo.... ani, aru ke chha ta USA ko khabar?? mero ta zindagi yestai ho kaam gardai chhu, kaile kata kaile kata travel garnu parcha. ani, banda hadtal bata wakka, khub exercise hunchha kaile kahi ta... ek choti rikshaw chadera banda ma farkindai thiye, jhandai madhesi forum ko manche le rikshaw jalaidiyeko, negotiate ...
I wanna lost to the heaven.......in the hell.....and everywhere I havenot gone. I want to loose, everything I have gained till now. I hate my past. I always want to run ahead, dont know who is gonna save me from this, but I am sure...this is my life and I have to make it run ahead. But there must be someone to hold me...still searching the one, a cool one...whom I can trust. But dont know why I dont trust person for a long time. I know this is my life, but really feel disgust, when I cant get the picture of the person, talking with me just ahead of me. Really bored from this world and really want to get run from this selfish world. But where I must to get out of this world??
Virgin, the meaning of virgin in oxford dictionary is given as person who never has sexual intercourse. This issue is being always raised among my friends, everytime I meet them. They ask, if I wud like to go with them for loosing my virgininty, or ask me why I am virgin till this age. I dont have the answer on my mind. Yah, this question always makes me puzzled that, is being virginity till this age is crime. I dont believe that this is crime. Yah I am sex lover and I wont be wondered that other people of my age arenot sex lover. But this doesnot mean that you must loose virginity for being sex lover. I was walking around the gauridhara and the kailash parbat of Pashupati. One of my freind told me that...he is insultated by his freinds about him being virgin. Same question is raised by my freinds to me. Even unknown freinds (unkknown in the manner that they are not my college or school freinds) ask me about this feelings. Last time when I was fully drunk, I dont remember what had happ...
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